There are a lot of other things I ought to do tonight, but while Chaz and Shannon play Guitar Hero, I’m catching up on some blogging. I really need to consolidate these things. I never meant to have half a dozen.
On the good news front, I was invited to do a quick spot of guest blogging at The Big Picture. It’s not my best work as it felt a little stale writing about Indiana Jones so long after seeing the movie. Nevertheless, do feel free to abuse their comments by showering me with inordinate praise. Mayhap they’ll invite me back in the future.
After a craptastic day at work, I’m feeling more relaxed tonight than I have in weeks. I’ve been worried about how I was going to achieve that vaunted work/life balance I hear praised so highly. I’m the first salesperson into my office every morning. It’s not uncommon for me to work through lunch. I’ve been so damn determined to impress the hell out of my boss.
Today, I faced the realization that’s never going to happen. Luckily, it’s not my fault. He put himself in a bad situation which I suspect may leave him homeless & royally screwed in the next few years. This gets taken out on his employees, who he blames for his poor decisions. The last I heard, I was exceeding my benchmarks. This morning, I was flabbergasted by a set of personal attacks culminating with him saying I’m so incompetant he expects me to quit. (Incidentally, every salesperson he hired has quit in one year. He doesn’t see working with him as the one think they all have in common.) The rest of my office shrugged his tirade off. He gets in a mood sometimes, they said. Take everything he says with a grain of salt, they said. Learn to work around him, just like the rest of us.
I’ve been under tremendous stress trying to live up to his expectations. I haven’t left myself a lot of time for anything other than work. After my coworkers assured me this kind of treatment is his idea of motivation, the weight of all that pressure evaporated. It was an amazing feeling. I honestly didn’t realize how much I’d let work absorb me. With the right attitude, he could’ve harnessed my energies to make him a heck of a lot of money. Instead, he’s created another indifferent worker drone.
So tonight, instead of the usual stress and extra product study, I’m kicking back with some gaming and music. Okay, gaming, music, and a brief rant. Hopefully, you’ll be hearing a lot more about friends & family than work in the near future. I can thank my boss for one thing. He reminded me what’s important.